light (the irretrievable allure of outdoors)

light (the irretrievable allure of outdoors)

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be.
…Now all I do is kiss you through the bars of a rhyme,
Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time!

“Romeo and Juliet,” Dire Straits, Making Movies

rM126 realized one day

hospitals, school, and work had one thing

in common—banks of fluorescent lights

but his whole life had been inside so far

(only stories told of sunshine and outside)

then one day he stood in the blinding light

that had been his entire life indoors

feeling a nagging sense that this glare

was somehow not all that existed

when he heard a female voice say (he thought)

outdoors as if the world stopped spinning

he turned and his eyes landed on jC316

clicking his racing mind into gear thinking

what could the sun feel like against my skin

what could my lips feel pressed against hers

things he was forbidden to think or do inside

the only life and world he had been allowed

and he felt for the first time his heart there

as if expanding too large for his chest and mind

he knew that he would have to tell her this

he knew that he would have to ask her to risk

the light outdoors not the light indoors

and the irretrievable allure of things done

together