sadness (dark chocolate)

sadness (dark chocolate)

"Then I hugged her one more time, to etch her warmth indelibly into my brain."

Haruki Murakami, Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World

sadness has a special sweetness

not in its occurrence

but as a state of being

i do not feel sad

nothing makes me sad

i am sad therefore i am

but inside that sadness

sits like a yolk in a shell

this moment of happiness

that otherwise would have been lost

inconsequential as rain or snow

and just as ephemeral

the last time i was happy

occurred nearly two years ago

but i know the moment

i know where i was sitting

i know what you asked of me

i know the week that followed

and all of it remains like you

dark chocolate on the tongue

of my memory and imagination

i whisper to myself alone

prayers and pleas and longings

for you my sadness and happiness